Happy Hump Day!

Well, last night me and Ky went for a 45 minute long swim. I am so sore today!! I made sure I ate some protein balls after our workout, and they usually help me to not be sore the next day! But maybe I overdid it.

We basically did laps and laps and .. well more laps! It was actually the first time in a long time where I felt ok walking around the pool in my bikini! It was such an odd feeling! I really could get used to it though!

So my plans for the day include :

*Finish work here at the Hospital.
*Weigh In Time!! – I’m nervous to see if changing up what I’ve been eating and different exercise helped aid my weight loss.
* Pack for Easter Weekend in Ontario!!

I’m leaving Thursday night after working at Fabutan and driving the 4 hours, back to my home town.. I really miss home and my family. I’ll be meetin my brother’s new gf and her son for the first time as well.. *exciting* I haven’t liked his pervious gf’s so it should be interesting.

Is anybody else really protective of thier siblings?

I also get to make up a grocery list of my mom so she can pick me up some goodies so we don’t have to hawl a bunch of food from home. It also takes us a lot shoter of time to go through the States and then drive back up to Canada, so we’re not allowed to even bring alot of items.

What is everyone’s plans for the weeked?!?!

I think we’re going to do alot of walking in the country, and possibly ride some of my horses. I will for sure take a lot of photos with my mom’s camera and then post a ton on here this weekend. Especially with my horses and other pets on the the farm, that I miss so much!

Well, hope you all have a great hump day!!

Thank You..

I just want to take a minute and say thanks to everyone who emailed me, or commented on my previous post.

Being in this “funk” really sucks. I don’t know what to do and feel as though I should just give up. Having people around you who support you and give you encouraging and inspiring advice can really do wonders.

I am not going to give up! I ‘m starting Week 3 today of the diet I have been on. I’ve lost 4 pounds and dropped 1 – 2 pant sizes (depending on the brand) and I am happy with the results I am seeing. Of course, I would like to see immediate results but that is just not reality. Everyone reacts differently when it comes to diets, excercise or even just changing a few bad habits. Everyone is different. But I know in my heart, that I cannot give up!

This could all be due to the fact that I think I am catching the flu, I’m tired, irritable.. and craving sweets, HARD! But I’m going to push through if it kills me.

So again, thank you all so much! You make me want to do better, and right now I really need it!

*hugs and kisses*


Why I’ve Been Gone For A Few Days?

Hey guys and gals.

I’ve been on hiatus for a few days now. There has been alot running through my mind. I am unsatisfied. I feel unsatisfied with my life, my weight, myself in general.

Have you ever gotten into a complete funk?

I’m starting to feel like “am I doing this right?” I haven’t lost any weight since my detox week, eventhough I worked out at the gym all weekend and have been sticking to my diet. I feel like I am putting in all this effort and seeing minimal results, if that!

I really don’t enjoy my job that much. I feel as though people judge me since I am small already and 99% of them are overweight. They’re constantly telling me that I don’t need to loose the weight, and they’re right! Honeslty I look completely normal. But, normal is not good enough for me! I want to be fit and healthy, but not look too skinny! Is that a bad thing?

I have a select few that say I look great and support me, but most of the people in my life, make fun of what I’m doing.

It’s so frustrating, I’m trying to make myself a better person, and get in touch with who I am, and set my goals high. Yet I have people bringing them back down.

Anyways, that’s why I have been MIA the last few days, just not in a happy state of mind right now. I really need to get myself out of this funk!

On a good note, I went to buy some new jeans and I’m down 1 -2 sizes depending on the brand of jeans.. that cheered me up! But not enough. Help!

Weigh In / Work Out

Good Afternoon!

I managed to get about 45 min – 1 hour of walking in today during all my break, I usually walk about 1 mile every 10-15 minutes, depending on how many older women I have to run over..lol So I feel as though I got in my steps for tonight’s weight in. I aim to get at least 10,000 a day. But since I didn’t go and weigh in yesterday I have yesterdays steps adn todays steps.. so far I have 19, 076 steps! Hopefully I lost a little bit. I’m more excited to hear if Kyle has lost anything.

Does anybody else work out at work or on their lunch break?

I used to feel tired when I would, but now I’m not nearly as bad, I may be a little drouzy but a quick snack or some water usually clears that right up! I also got called skinny minnie TWICE today, really cheered me up but also made me walk longer..lol I’m the kind of person who really can’t take a compliment seriously!

Anwhoo, work is almost done, I would like to get in a few more steps so I think I’ll do a few more steps! I hope you all enjoy your nights, I’m sure I’ll have a blast working *cough ..not.. cough* I will be posting bright and early tomorrow to let you know how everything went


Delicious Treats!!

Man, did I make the most wonderful treats within the last two days!! I wish I had my camera to show you all just how TASTY they are! I even forgot the recipes at home, so I will have to post them tomorrow since I work again tonight at Fabutan.

The first ones I made were called Peanut Butter Protein Balls, all you add were peanut butter, honey, protein powder, rice krispies and some other ingredients and they reminded me of some cookies my grandmother used to make.

And, today I made Chocolate Almond Protein Balls. They have unsweetened cocoa, protein powder, honey, anddried apricots and you roll them into balls, then roll them around in crushed almonds!! SOOO GOOD!

So I leave you this morning with one of my favorite shows BIGGEST LOSER “Before and After” photos!!



Just look how tiny they got!! This proves that anybody can loose the weight if they REALLY want to!! 🙂

Me and Kyle have our weigh in today, I’m a little nervous since I treated myself to like a tablespoons of peanut butter last night.. so I cheated..lol Maybe I’l walk it all off at lunch!!

OH! and I almost forgot, they are opening a gym here at my work (Hospital) for 16$ a month!! Is that not ridiculious, I am paying 60$ a month at my other gym!! I am totally joining and will go there everyday at lunch!!

CANNOT WAIT FOR SUMMER! This will hopefully be the first summer in YEARS that I will wear a bathing suit in public.. so excited!

Total Weight Loss

Last night me and Kyle were supposed to go to UWeight Loss and find out what exactly we could do as we could not afford to pay more money for the vitamins. They told us we might be able to get our 700$ back and use that towards the vitamins, and will a long period of thinking last night, We decided we’ll do that. We were already investing the 700$ for the program and as long as we do not have to pay a penny more, we’ll do it.

As for our weight loss, Kyle has already dropped 8 pounds and I have dropped….*drumroll*…. 4 Pounds! Once we start really getting back into our gym routine, we should see a weightloss of around 2 pounds pre week, but if we work hard enough and get into a routine, we may see more weight loss.

The realy point of this all is for me to loose a few and to really support Kyle, he has been overweight since I met him, and he used to have the worst eating habits ever. Since I came along, around 2 1/2 years ago, he has dropped porbably around 15 pounds, since I have been the one making better meals then what he was accustomed to. But he really wants to get down to a weight that he should be at his age, and I want that as well. One day we’re going to get married and I need a husband who will be with me until the end.

I love him beyond belief and will do anything to support him and help him regain his health ❤

p.s I had a record amount of visitors yesterday!! Thanks everyone for checking out my blog, I hope you all enjoy, and keep the comments coming!! They really make my day 🙂

My Grass Will Always Be Greener!

I though long and hard about this all day today. I have accepted that I am out 350$. That I am ok with. I would even be “ok” if I stayed the same weight I am now. BUT, I know I can accomplish more. I know I can do this on my own. I am going to do this.

I’ve given myself a goal of loosing whatever weigth I want by the end of May. That gives me two months to really work at it and get it done. I have been wanting to loose weight for years now and I am going to do it. I don’t care if I have no life and just go to the gym. I may sound a little crazy right now, but I really need to put myself first for once. Tonight, I am going to hit the gym, workout as much as I feel necessary and go home and take a hot bath and relax.

I really think that it’s all just mind over matter. I’ve had a week now without sugar or junk food. I feel great. And I am usually not a very positive person but now I feel as though I need to have a positive outlook on everything. If I can do this in two months, I will be living proof that literally anybody can do it, if they really wanted to!


When we first joined UWeight Loss, we paid our starter fee and a maintenance fee. This starter fee included our protein powder, vitamins, detox pills, pedometer, journals and hundreds of recipes. We go and weight in 3 times a week or as much as we can. We finished our detox week last night, but I’ve been calling it my crap free week at home (since I need to really kick my addiction to sugar) Anyways, we went to go weight in last night and to pick up our vitamins for this week and … there’s a hitch! We were told that the vitamins were included in the 350$ starter kit. Since that’s a great deal of money we made sure and asked them if it was included. WELL, we go there today and they tell us that no they were only free for the first week and we have to pay an additional $50 each a week for them!! That’s 100$ a week! . I was in such an outrage that I was almost crying in the room with the lady. I asked her if we had to take the vitamins and if we could do it without them and she said we have to take them to be apart of the program.

So the moral of the story, never join a weight loss place. EVER! There are not there to really help you, they just want your money! So since our Starter fee of 350$ each is non-refundable, we can only get 700$ back if we want to quit. Kyle might stay with the program since he is overweight, but I am not. I didn’t really want to join in the first place, I just really wanted to support him and his decision. He feels terrible of course since I’ve been crying all night. But I guess you learn from your mistakes and move on. We’re still going to follow most of the recipes and work out more to make up for the vitamins I guess? This is all so confusing to me. I hate it.

I really hate it.

Just An Update

Hello Everyone!

Sorry about my tardyness and not posting this morning, I was in meetings all day with my boss (total snooze-fest) Anywhoo.. This morning went really well, woke up really hungry!! I knew something must have been working in my tummy!.

So this morning we had a Power Oatmeal & Nut Butter, and I can tell you that it was delicious!! It was packed with cinnamon and my homemade almond butter to top it off!!

We actually just got back from the UWeight Loss Centre and good news, Kyle has dropped 3.5 pounds since Monday and I have lost a Pound!!

Only 11 more pounds to go until I reach my goal weight!!

I leave you this evening with a photo from this Christmas in Bermuda!! Yeah!